Knowing your priorities

July is coming!!! I knew so many things are about to happen. I just can't say it here. 

I think this is a sign to take a break. I am planning to shift into a different career. With too many things to do, i can't get started. I knew I must slow down and not rush everything, but I  felt like as if I am wasting too much time. Well, eventually, I am wasting time now.

I don't know my priorities, I make everything my priorities!

A week ago, I was desperately finding ways to get my euro trip come true, but just yesterday, when I was in the church, I realized that I cannot make all things happen in one time. 

I still have a pending application for Japan Volunteering that will last for 3-4 months of 2014. 
I also have an application in Thailand this year. I want to make all this possible.
I also need to accomplish my IELTs this August. But then, I have to enroll for a review classes.
And I also have a Japanese and Mandarin classes to attend. And another English proficiency class. I must also finish the educational units I enrolled in PWU which is due to be finished this coming September. And of course, I can't make this possible if I don't have a job.

Right now, I am planning to take a homebased job to support all my studies and of course to be able to pay my dues. 

I can't work in the office since I'll be always out of the country, and no job will let me do this.

I guess what I have to do first is to know my goal. I'm torn honestly. I knew I wanted to get away.   Escaping won't solve every problem, but sometimes, it's a great way to give yourself peace of mind. To give yourself a time to think.

I'm not getting any younger, so I wanted to do all this. Maybe then, I'll find what I've been looking for. Coz honestly, contentment is something I haven't feel yet.  I always feel something is missing, that this isn't the life I've always dreamed of. I must find it myself. I just hope when I found it, its not too late.