Maybe this year...

It's 2022. Another year, another learning to live. 

I survived 2021 without getting infected by Covid regardless of any variant there is, however, this year, I lost my dear cousin due to Covid, a very unexpected one. 

I thought last year I would go mad, but that didn't happen. I was able to go home to the Philippines and stayed there for a month, didn't manage to travel around due to numerous restrictions in place but at least I got to see and spend time with my family. 

I switched positions within the same company - I wanted to challenge myself to do more. It was a great move. 

I visited Austria and Slovenia last summer, which reminded me how much I love traveling. 

Finally, I met and got to spend some time with my dear one. Traveled a couple of times there too, had a funny lovely chat with the immigration officers back in Manchester =)

I got myself a ragdoll kitten, I called him Ery. Pain in the ass for sure. This impulsive decision was due to my broken heart in August in UK.

I spent Christmas alone and I got myself very drunk before new year's eve. Though I managed to salvage my new year. Danced and sang along. 

I successfully passed two work certifications, and my theory and practical driving tests in Czech, I'm quite healthy I think, I laughed, I cried, I was happy, I was sad, I was broken, I was lonely, I was scared.

And as the year 2021 ends, all I have is misery. 

As I began 2022, I wish to hope, I wish to be loved, I wish to be wanted.

Maybe this year, I will win the lottery? 

Maybe this year, he would come?

Maybe this year, he would ask me to travel with him?

Maybe this year, he would want me to be part of his life too?

or Maybe this year, none of this will happen and I will just move on.

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The World is on The Recovery Process

It always amaze me how time flies, can't believe it's already 2021 and I am writing to my blog after a very long time. It feels like I was lost in dimensions.

In late 2019, I made a big move! I bought a flat, and moved in April 2020, precisely the reason why I am broke. 

2020 is certainly not the best year for everyone in the world, probably one of the worst nightmares anyone could possibly have. Due to the coronavirus (Covid-19), many people have lost their jobs, closed businesses, unable to travel, go to restaurants, concert, spa and not even a visit to a salon. We were mostly on the total lockdown. I spent a year in my flat, luckily, I got my friend living with me, until she left, that's when I started to feel emptiness. It could be very lonely, but I do not wish to take in another person to live with me. I missed spending Christmas and New Year with my family. I was scared to travel, so I really was just at home. I have no right to complain cos others have it worse. 

And since I am at home most of the time, I only see things for improvement in my flat :D I just cannot help it, I keep wanting to change things. 

I don't talk much, not even speak my mind, feel like I'm reaching my limit, so before I lose my sanity, I decided to go back home - Philippines. It was so much hassle and costly since I needed to do the PCR Test, definitely not a pleasant experience. 

When I arrived at the airport, and when I was on the plane and the transit connection, deep down inside me, I was very sad, the normally very busy areas are now empty. The traveling industry is very badly hit due to this pandemic that the world is experiencing and trying to fight with. 

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If I win in the lottery, I would like to build a school for underprivileged kids.

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If I am nature's fairy, I would turn all garbage into something 'earthy'. Small plastics on the land will turn into a flower or small plant or grass, big ones will become trees, if it's in the ocean, it will be sea creatures or sea plants. How lovely the world will be? And to punish any human being who will still destroy our nature, I will make sure that if they do not throw their trash properly, it will stick into their body, or maybe they will turn little by little into a tree. Wouldn't be a waste, isn't it? 

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