The More you Hate the More you love, How true?

There's a saying that "the more you love, the more you hate", just how true is that? In my opinion, it varies according to the depth and type of hate.

I never really "realize" my dream or should I say, i don't have dream of my own. I do not ambition to be famous, to have a great career, to be rich, or even to travel the world. All I ever wanted was to get out from where I am. I always want to escape for no reasons.  I just feel that way.

My favorite person's dream is to travel the world, but because he was so busy with his work, he cannot do it. So, I told him, I'm gonna travel the world, and share you my stories.

When I started working on my 2nd company after graduating, my colleague invited me to travel to Beijing, but because visa travel in China is a bit complicated, we decided to change plan and go to Korea. Unfortunately, our chances of getting visa approval is very low since we don't have overseas travel record. A great solution we thought was to visit Macau, Hongkong and Shenzen China using group visa. It was a success. My first travel was Macau, a very exciting trip for we don't have prior hotel booking; imagine 4 girls roaming around Macau in the middle of the night to find a cheap place to stay!

After Macau, my colleague and I went to Seoul,South Korea. I discovered my first limitation. I feel like exploding while watching time passed by waiting for her. I couldn't stand waiting.. tic tac tic tac.. time is running. I must do something. So, even I was alone, I walked out that door and leave her. I traveled other part of South Korea.

I had a problem with that 'certain colleague', regarding work ethics. Well, it wasn't really me, but my other team member. I was trying to fix things but I ended up being blamed. She betrayed me and caused me so much troubles until she resigned.

A year later, our path meet again, she smiled at me. I smiled at her. In my head, i was thinking, why the hell she's smiling at me, it's as if she's done nothing wrong to me. How could she possibly do that! Isn't she supposed to be apologizing? well, past is past.

My smile at her was innocent. I do not keep hatred against her. I am not even mad at her.

In fact, I would like to thank her. I wouldn't be where I am right now if it wasn't because of her. She lead me to start my dream to travel the world, she is the no. 1 reason why I am so confident to travel alone.
How can I not thank her? I am going to Europe alone to study, and that's because I have the confidence to go on! Thank you Jesseca should you stumble to this post. You're the best. I wish I could thank you personally, but we never meet, and I don't have any means to contact you.

Thank you. You're one of the best things happened to me. You are also one of the greatest people I knew.
I do not hate you, so I do not love you. But I do thank you with all my heart.

And I also wish to thank my favorite person for allowing me to fulfill his dream.. because of that.. i have something to look forward.. and I am having the best time of my life. Thanks Nan. You're the best.

readmore »»