2016 is over, but the memories of the past still lives on. I had so many ups and downs, that I really do not wish to remember, I don't want to remember once more how I behaved and acted so badly. I lost my temper easily, I was so impatient, I freaked out, I cried a lot but I certainly laugh more.
I met quite a lot of people who inspire me to do my best, to remind me that I am so blessed. The best and the worst trip of my life by far was India. During this trip, I was surrounded by people whom I cannot converse much due to language difference and shyness in speaking in English. I ended up in the shadow, there at the dark corner of the room while others are enjoying and having fun. Their laughters reminded me that I'm alone. That was during the first 3 weeks of our India trip, they are very nice people, it's just, something is wrong. It could be me, I didn't initiate much, or it could be them for not trying much, but it's okay, I found a good friend who saved me from my loneliness. The succeeding weeks, I joined the rest of the group for a summer school in Bhubaneswar, my network of friends grew bigger!!! I talked a lot, I laughed a lot. We shared good moments. It was fun! Gone are the days I'm lonely and no one to talk to.
This summer school has opened my eyes to what selflessness and art of giving are. I met an amazing person - Achyuta Samanta, who funded and run the KIIT university, where thousands of tribal kids are given a privilege to educate themselves, both academic and practical skills. Free accommodation, food, clothing, and more! They are taught what they need to know in order to survive this cruel life. I was so amaze by the smile of these kids, they're like angels! I also spent time with these kids playing during the afternoon, and learning some useful handicrafts from them. I learned how to knit!
Seeing how happy these children who are economically deprived, and yet given chances to live the life like other normal kids these days, makes my heart melt. I was so touched. I couldn't contain my happiness seeing them smiling everyday. I realized that I am so blessed.
I'd like to give as much as I could without asking anything in return, I want not to have the feeling of "unfairness", because sometimes, i questioned things, which I know is really bad.
This 2017, I look forward for a better version of myself. Someone who is willing to give without remorse, someone who smiles all the time, someone who doesn't complain in any little things that didn't go according to what I want. I will stop searching, I will accept whatever comes my way.
Smile a lot, and stop frowning and crying. Lead a good life and stop mourning about my past. Let it be my guide in facing life ahead. Never forget to count your blessings, and to remind yourself that you are so blessed. Why? Simply, because you are able to read this article. You are alive.
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