If I were a doctor, I would be.

If I were a doctor, I am definitely Choi Eun Suk of Scent of a Woman, insensitive, harsh and frank; his chilly protective outer layer yet vulnerable underbelly and his nervously adorable boyish side underneath it all. AKONG AKO! :D

People hate this kind of person, but in my case, I love it. Why? Because this is my favorite among my personalities. Speak with honesty. At least, hindi ako nagpapaasa at nagpapaniwala sa alam ko naman na hindi na pwede.

Reality is Reality, it will hurt for sure. Kahit sa paanong paraan mo pa rin siya sabihin, makakasakit ka pa rin, kasi hindi nila gusto yung maririnig nila. Sa mata ng ibang tao, sobrang sama ng mga taong katulad namin, sabi nga nila, WALANG preno ang bibig, pero magkaiba naman at TAKLESA sa nagsasabi ng totoo. I think it also depends on the situation. A doctor is a doctor; he has to tell his patients what he needs to know. If I am the receiver of the news, I would want to slap the doctor telling me I am dying and has no hope. But he is stating a reality. He is a doctor, he is not god.  Unlike, doctors who keep on telling his patients and families to stay in the hospital kahit na alam naman ng wala ng pag asa. Why not let that patient enjoy his remaining days happy? AND NOT in the hospital chamber waiting for his death. I just couldn’t stand doctors like that.

There’s a saying “You cannot please everyone to like you” kahit sobrang ganda pa ng sinasabi mo, if ayaw ka ng tao, lahat ng sasabihin mo laging my “dating” or “ibang ibig sabihin” para sa kanila. Even if you wanted to explain, since they dislike you, they won’t listen. For them, you’re still the bad girl.

Just be yourself. Your “Real Friend” will stay with you. Basta make sure, wala ka sinasaktan tao, or wala kang ginagawang masama. It ain't easy to live a life with many enemies. Mas okay, if you’ll have many people around you, loving you. If many people are mad at you, perhaps, there is really something wrong about you. Reflect on yourself.

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Too Insensitive? Or They're just too sensitive?

kapag tayo sinabihan ng "hindi natin gusto", iisipin nila, your words are nasty or that you are a bad person. We must learn to accept criticism, this will help us to improve. I received a lot of that, like when someone insulted my work during college days when I really believed it was perfectly done,  I wanted to curse that person coz it feels terribly bad, but then, taking it negatively won't change anything. Why not take it possitively and use this as your motivation to improve? Take time to think, that person might be right afterall. Hindi pwdeng lagi yung gusto natin ang maririnig natin. Kasi kung ganon lang, get a recorder, utuin mo yung sarili mo paulit ulit. 

I received so many criticisms from my friends regarding my manner of speaking. Napaisip ako, kasi para sakin, it's natural(an honest way of saying things - straightforward/frank) but for other people iba na yung dating(offensive!). Kung isa lang siya, d ako maniniwala, pero dahil marami sila, they might be right. So what i did? Sometimes I would rather not talk if I can't find the right words to say. It's hard to remain silent when you know something must be said!  Change doesn't happen overnight. It's indeed a very very long way to go most especially when you've been like that eversince.

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Knowing your priorities

July is coming!!! I knew so many things are about to happen. I just can't say it here. 

I think this is a sign to take a break. I am planning to shift into a different career. With too many things to do, i can't get started. I knew I must slow down and not rush everything, but I  felt like as if I am wasting too much time. Well, eventually, I am wasting time now.

I don't know my priorities, I make everything my priorities!

A week ago, I was desperately finding ways to get my euro trip come true, but just yesterday, when I was in the church, I realized that I cannot make all things happen in one time. 

I still have a pending application for Japan Volunteering that will last for 3-4 months of 2014. 
I also have an application in Thailand this year. I want to make all this possible.
I also need to accomplish my IELTs this August. But then, I have to enroll for a review classes.
And I also have a Japanese and Mandarin classes to attend. And another English proficiency class. I must also finish the educational units I enrolled in PWU which is due to be finished this coming September. And of course, I can't make this possible if I don't have a job.

Right now, I am planning to take a homebased job to support all my studies and of course to be able to pay my dues. 

I can't work in the office since I'll be always out of the country, and no job will let me do this.

I guess what I have to do first is to know my goal. I'm torn honestly. I knew I wanted to get away.   Escaping won't solve every problem, but sometimes, it's a great way to give yourself peace of mind. To give yourself a time to think.

I'm not getting any younger, so I wanted to do all this. Maybe then, I'll find what I've been looking for. Coz honestly, contentment is something I haven't feel yet.  I always feel something is missing, that this isn't the life I've always dreamed of. I must find it myself. I just hope when I found it, its not too late.

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Meet you at the crossroad

Too many things happened in an instance. I enrolled into a Japanese and English classes to improve. I wanted to become a teacher, an ESL teacher. I've been dreaming of a work that will allow me to be surrounded with different people in a dynamic environment and to TRAVEL!

Days from now, i'll be changing my career.  I really wanted to study abroad. I do hope there's a fairy or a genie out there to grant my wish. But for now, I wanted to do some volunteering works. Sounds fun!

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Doing something?

Hmmm, I wanted to resign, I've been doing the same thing over and over again. Sounds redundant isn't it? My Career will not progress if I keep doing the same thing. (when do I become career oriented?)

4 years ago, when I was asked during a job interview ' How do you see yourself 5 years from now"
I think I answered I'm already a manager then, and have a team. Well, that basically happened on my first job, i was able to handle my own team. Until I resigned, and looked for another job. It's a good thing, I learned from that company. I remember, I told myself, just few months after I was hired from this 2nd company, i want to resign, perhaps after 6 months, but then,i was "regularized". So then, maybe next year.. then, got promoted, still, i wish to resign, i wanna to do something else... but then, I cannot leave my colleagues! I just enjoy being with them.  They are all nice, even the management. Everything was great! It's just the work is too redundant.

I thought of going back to study, so I enrolled on a post graduate degree while working. I also decided to take drivers licence. Maybe, I shall pursue my plan to study abroad? Cathy and I have been planning about it for almost a year.. her is becoming a reality, mine is still a blueprint. Why? I'm working, I don't have the luxury to do it.

I also wanted to take crash course on different subjects as well languages, but I have work!

I even teased my brother to just hire me, but give me high salary, and then he told me that I should just stay at home and he will feed me. Haha

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